There are some conversations that we have with God that are simply painful enough when they take place between He and ourselves...but there are times when He pushes us even further and then requires that we share the conversation with others....For me, this is one of those occasions....
My painful conversation with God began at the onset of 2011...right about the time when most of us are coming up with ways to renege on our New Year's resolutions...God, in His infinite authority and wisdom, made it clear that the word He was imparting to my spirit was far more than something I had the luxury of weighing as an "optional consideration..." I was to hear Him loud and clear...because our relationship depended on it.....this dialogue between God and I has been an ongoing one, but one that I expected would remain private..... you know, just between He and I... well, that was the case until my Pastor preached a sermon last weekend that totally convicted me and re-enforced the conversation subject matter...and then I knew, I was supposed to share....
In actuality, this conversation found it's basis in one word...a word that God shared with me because I have been sorely lacking in this department...especially as it relates to my mouth and attitude.....the word is...."Congruous..." yep, that's the word...good ole "congruous...."
You see, congruous simply means "being in agreement, harmony or correspondence"....the question God literally spoke to my heart was...."Are you congruous? Is who you appear to be in harmony with who you really are?" and I got the distinct impression that the question nagging my heart had lots to do with the way I speak, and all too often, behave....especially with those who are closest to me.
Unfortunately, having the gift of gab has a darkside which can often manifest as a quick, sarcastic wit and sharp tongue.... I had to admit then, and even now, that this is still a struggle for me...but thankfully, God has been lovingly adamant about keeping me mindful of my new friend "congruous..." or in plain terms...keeping me mindful of making sure that my walk matches my talk.....the kind worth speaking; that is....
I believe that this will probably be a lifetime battle...but one I trust God to complete in me....
Perhaps you also have a similar struggle...well my friends, if that is so; I pray for each heart that reads this and can identify with it; that you will know God's all -surpassing power to transform, redeem and restore you. I pray that you will allow Him room in your life to stir up within you and pour out of you only those things that will honor, glorify and esteem Him and those around you!!! When you sin in this area, I pray that you will confess it to Him immediately so that nothing will stand in the way of His completing the planned work that He has begun in you as well...In Jesus' Mighty Name....Amen & Amen.....
